i woke up at 4am to the sound of my clamshell ringing.

the number read 'unknown'..still sleepy, i managed to fumble my clamshell of a phone open and placed the reciever on my ear..half curious, half annoyed.

"camy?"

"nico?"

"I just have the most A-MAAAAAzing news!" *other end breathes heavily*

*i rolls eyes* "what's up?"

*another deep breath* "ijustgotacceptedforthesecondvtrforpinoybigbrotherisn'tthatsosogreatwhereareyouanyway?

*i sigh* "US, Los Angeles."

*pitch rises* "What!? Since when?"

*exhales tiredly "since last monday."

*silence*

*exhales again* "i couldn't reach you...so i didn't had any chance to tell you...you disappeared."

*silence then a small...* "oh."


not much people knew i was leaving pala...and when they did it wasn't a very good reaction. part of me wants to keep it a secret and the other to just burst it out. but yun nga...sensya na ah. when i left, it was also in haste and i did try inform, it was just too..i don't know, painful? it's not easy to say na you're leaving and you have no idea when you'll be coming back...ayoko naman din magsalita ng tapos. basta, babalik din ako...though i dunno if there are people who do. :)

basta basta.

ewan ewan.

malamig pa rin dito...

i looked up at the sky just now as i type this. i still see orion, the ursula minora and ursula majora...scorpio and hints of other constellations.

different continent, but the same sky...be it night or day

but manila is still manila.

...i think im starting to get homesick

good night muna.