i haven't written for a while.

so please excuse my babble.

i am close to the month when i will again depart for the other side of the world. it is not easy peasy, having to reassess everything again and pocketing memories for me to keep. leaving everyone behind, having to endure winter..having to be dependent on other people to get around town. no more long walks or spur of the moment gimmiks. no more saguijo..again.

damn.

after everything that happened in just a few months, i feel that if i stayed...it might not be good for me anymore. so the universe is just kind enough to shake me out of my manila amore mode and get myself back on track in regaining my original purpose of coming home and coming back.

my auntie's perfume smells like my apartment back in Orange County..no doubt about it...it's a sign.

i write in calmness. the first since i stopped moving at a fast pace.