i woke up at 4am to the sound of my clamshell ringing.

the number read 'unknown'..still sleepy, i managed to fumble my clamshell of a phone open and placed the reciever on my ear..half curious, half annoyed.

"camy?"

"nico?"

"I just have the most A-MAAAAAzing news!" *other end breathes heavily*

*i rolls eyes* "what's up?"

*another deep breath* "ijustgotacceptedforthesecondvtrforpinoybigbrotherisn'tthatsosogreatwhereareyouanyway?

*i sigh* "US, Los Angeles."

*pitch rises* "What!? Since when?"

*exhales tiredly "since last monday."

*silence*

*exhales again* "i couldn't reach you...so i didn't had any chance to tell you...you disappeared."

*silence then a small...* "oh."


not much people knew i was leaving pala...and when they did it wasn't a very good reaction. part of me wants to keep it a secret and the other to just burst it out. but yun nga...sensya na ah. when i left, it was also in haste and i did try inform, it was just too..i don't know, painful? it's not easy to say na you're leaving and you have no idea when you'll be coming back...ayoko naman din magsalita ng tapos. basta, babalik din ako...though i dunno if there are people who do. :)

basta basta.

ewan ewan.

malamig pa rin dito...

i looked up at the sky just now as i type this. i still see orion, the ursula minora and ursula majora...scorpio and hints of other constellations.

different continent, but the same sky...be it night or day

but manila is still manila.

...i think im starting to get homesick

good night muna.

-i am currently living in Norwalk. my relatives though are from Riverside. The travel from Norwalk to Riverside is like Manila to Tarlac..and since Norwalk is relatively nearer to where I'll be training/working, it's much more convenient to stay there. I am staying with a friend of my auntie and i help out by paying a bit of rent... :)

-i don't know how long i would be staying, but the longest would be six months...maybe a year..but, di ko pa kaya yun....yearssss. my auntie advised that it is better that i stay longer, but hey.....i will be nothing more than a popsicle when i return....or something.

-i would be spending christmas here. my mom and dad were suppose to come by for a visit..but in the end, they decided that they would wait out nalang the 6 months. :(

-and for others who asked: yes, i do have a plan...kaya ko to dinesisyon ng buong loob. yun na yun.

-masyadong malamig dito. nangyeyelo na ang mga daliri ko. seriously.

-please don't text me sa GLOBE line ko, mahal pala ang bawas to the both of us...kaya im going to try and update you guys as much as i can via here or YM...you can email me too sa stellardreamer_camy@yahoo.com that is until i can save up to buy a laptop...(macmacmacmacmac..sana)

-miss ko na sa-gui-jo at big-sky-mind :))

sigh.

sige...bye muna

til the next update.